very very long since i last updated.
dun think anyone will come n read, but jus wanted write it down

year coming to an end, things coming to an end too.
i can feel how bad my performance is, i noe my enthusiasm is dying, i noe is very obvious, but i dunno wat i can do to change it
i feel useless
i noe is my bad habit, i noe it shouldn be this way, i noe, i really noe
but i just cant control =(
i noe i should put my best, at least act as if i m
but i dunno how to act. acting is neva my strong point
when i dislike something, i will show it out.
this is bad, something i need to change.

alot say i need to change, or time to change job
i noe i m affected, i start to lose my stand.
this shows how much determination i have.

when i did my things wrongly, i dun mind ppl scold me
at least give a hard knock on my head, or at least u vent or anger
pls dun jus tok behind me
sometimes i m very insensitive, or sort of i subconsciously choose not to hear
so anything, jus be frank.
I really wont mind

Sometimes i can't help to doubt myself
A lot of times, i will choose to remain silence, acting as if nothing happen
If things need to be said, then wat de point.

I always tell myself, a lot of things can't change even when i m unhappy. So de only thing i can do if forget n let it pass.

sleepless days

working now

realised that i will be living like an owl for 1 week.

night shift starting from wed till next wed. not able to get any rest since i m on weekend duty

dun really dare to tell mom tht today i only managed to fall asleep at 4 pm, and woke up at bout 7pm so tht i will be more ready for work

the feeling is quite bad when i m lyin on the bed n unable to sleep

i will miss my bed

yes, my blog is finally up to date le!

opps forgot to mention that i finally change my phone

Samsung Galaxy Note

initially wanted to change s3 de, but still cant bring myself to spend close to $500 for a phone =(
change to note instead as there is a promotion, which is relatively more affordable.

no regrets until now =)
will find a chance to take pic of my phone when de new covers arrive =)

pictures took in June

Looking back it seems that my June is not tht happening compared to May...

hmmm maybe becos de first 2 weeks i m occupied with the yoga classes at One wellness 

finally had the feel of how hot yoga is like, and i realised practising yoga in yoga centre is really different from those in CC

. yoga center instructor will really "push" u to ensure that you are stretching to your fullest limits XD

Lunch meetup with gals @ the thai restaurant near Suntec 

(realised nowadays meetups we only take pic of the food)

Gifts from Hong Kong by hm!
Thank you~~ ^.^

Lastly, finally got to meetup with Mengjie!

too bad hm is not free tht day.

Dinner @ Just Acia

pictures took in May

After taking months, i finally here to upload the photos XD
It will be too many photos to upload if i do it one by one. so i have combine those pics that were taken in the same event =)

First of all - Mothers' day celebration!

Next is the dim sum treat for my mom =)

It used to be a restaurant called 幸福酒楼in de past, where our family always come here for whole family dinner during special occasions like great grandma birthday.

I always remember our family is so big that we take up almost half the restaurant. And maybe becos i was still young at tht time, to me, this stairs that leads to the restaurant is so steep n i always afraid tht i will roll down. 

now, it has changed to another restaurant named 汕头 and the stairs seems to be average to me... 

Meetup with Carmen & Dor!

Meetup with ly laorens before yc fly back to China and jq go for army

Lunching with yc @ Hatched

grumbling

=(

it has been more than a month since i last updated.

cant believe tht i m so busy tht even though i have more an 12 hours online (almost) everyday and i do not even have time for online entertainment...

kindof sad when i dun have time for myself 

i have a pack schedule in May, especially at the later part of May.

now work schedule changes, workin on weekends on so its now even more pack my timing

hence i really dislike when ppl change their meetups with me, cos i will disrupt my whole schedule 

i admit i m very selfish now, or i should say overbearing?

i have a fix schedule for my work, and due to shift, other ppl have to give in to me and only choose to meetup during my "off" days

my weekends used to be free, but now, other than sometimes i need to work weekend shift, i oso have my yoga lessons.

so if want to minus away my work, my yoga lessons and driving lessons, basically the time left is very limited.

ok enough of my grumbling n back to topic.

did really quite a lot of things during my last 2 weeks of May.

managed to have all the groups meetup with all the friends(except for wq), have some time for my family and have a celebration for mothers' day and catch a movie with them and started my new yoga trial

took quite a number of pics, as i will try to take a few shots for each meetups

i will post them soon~ when my schedule arent tht pack next week

or i will do it later... if my this night shift is not tht busy.

life is busy recently
suddenly a lot of meet ups.. super eventful

the whole of apr is so peaceful, until recently i m sick =.=
really need more rest
n i dun like this kind of 要病不病 de feeling.

很多时候因为很多人的期待和人情
很多时候都是逼不得已

还是不够坚强

又发烧了。

just realised,
the same thing is neva de same as before le.

it is me or de thing?

started my first driving lesson today
the instructor was friendly n quite humorous and make me laughed throughout de lesson =)
after giving me a short intro bout de lessons plan, practical test n de car,
i m able to start driving le!
LOL... totally unexpected.
ya i know i will start de engine and like mayb move towards n backwards,
but i didn expect to start driving in de circuits so soon.
overall de lesson is quite funny, jus tht 1 cant really drive in de center of de lane.
to me, i cant really feel much difference >.<
oh well, i jus hope my "sensing" will improve over de lessons =P





should i go to my yoga lesson or skip tht for part time job??

started my yoga today
de class is quite small, maybe becos is the first day.
overall is not bad, jus tht is not quite like wat i experience in ngee ann
but i guess will be good de!!

jus now chatting with hm
then realised i started to do thing alone
i think is a good sign
one should learn to be independent
is a important part of growing up i think
at least this is a change i realised after i really step out to work
cant expect your friends to always stick with u for all the things you do
jus like lunching alone isnt really a big deal
sound sad but true.

JIAYOU!!!!

this is madness, first time work for so long...
18 hours in 24 hours???
slept at bout 5.30am then for dunno wat reason i m waken up by a phone call at 8.50am



Workaholic???
i neva believe that i will become a workaholic one day, as i m a super lazy person with no high aims or goals
i think its time to reflect on my working productivity =(
mayb i m jus too slow n careless tht y i cant finish my work >....<

took my BTT jus now & YAY i passed!

although is a simple test but it is still happy to see i got full marks! =)

a small step forward, but a small step nearer =D

MX birthday celebration part 2~

went to have our lunch then head to k session

tried the kSuites, which i think is newly open in illuma

bought the voucher from the website so i think its quite affordable.

its using kbox system, so not much big difference. jus that the room are quite new and there is internet facilities =)

 Drinks, soup and one main included in the voucher

Went to IT show and spent money again T-T

Got all the things I needed & wanted - headphone & monitor

And....

Da da! 23 inch is jus nice! 

this shows how that how blind i m.

Gonna clear a area soon, so that it can be my working area! if not i think is quite troublesome to take out and keep every time =x

Bought a cake for sis for her 18th birthday!

but ended up became a belated birthday celebration becos she reach home after 12am =_='''

Went to Gourment Bakery Cafe to have dinner and also a birthday celebration for Dorothy =)

The birthday card and Starbucks cup for Dorothy =)

    

Went to Youth Olympic Park and enjoy the breeze + chit chat

Manage to catch a free "show" that is screen on Art Science Museum

lookin through my japan photos with de big screen =)

although de pics are very small, i think i should jus put some super highlights~~~

Kyoto~

Super nice and affordable sushi~~ 

all the ingredient all very fresh! and guess wat? 

is only 130 yen per plate! so is only about SGD $2 per plate and you will get all de nice sashimi!!

i think this should be the one of the most pretty pictures~

 Unagi~ expensive but nice!

Tokyo!!

 Tokyo Disney Sea~ 

i admit i m childish, but i really like Disney

going to Disneyland/Sea is really like a dream for me =D

Had a nice breakfast before we set off

 At the station before taking de Disney Train!

 Just nice in time for de Disney characters march when we reach!

LUCKY~~

 Becos is the celebration period for Disney Sea 10 years anniversary, we can see lots of 10-logo all around de place

 The parade~

 At Disney, you can really see performance everywhere!

 Took this pic when we r on the ride!

 This is their 360 degree roller coaster!

 This area is Aladdin theme

Eichigo. 

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

Sakae Museum =)

can use 500 yen to exchange for 3 tokens and test the different type of Sakae.

 All kinds of salts provided to go with the Sakae testing

Snow Mountain!

Tokyo tower

 Odaibai or Tokyo Bay =)

 Another very beautiful Disney store =)

Been to my first StayReal Outlet - StayReal Harajuku!

StayReal is a shop owned by Ashin X No2Good