not really in de mood now
too many emotions
I should go watch de p.s I love you
need to vent out.


Neva regret because of decision made
try de best of not having de "get over n done with" thinking
think positive, even its hard.
smile n laugh even u think is hard
things will get better

I will go lib real soon


I believe.

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official countdown 7 days to Icamp!!
praying hard everything will be well.


p.s. I now regret Neva buy it...

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jus finish my camp proposal and the time now is nearly 2am...

kindof stoning now as my brain is not really functioning...

time passes so quickly.

soon it will be Christmas, then new year, then end of internship then chinese new year then overseas trip.

omg ICamp countdown 1 week~~

everything will turn out fine
雨过天晴
雨过就会天晴吧。


I m tired,
tired for being such a failure.

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I noe everyone is trying to help.
sometimes actually there isn't a need for me to be present.
but actually life doesn't have to be so hard
u just have to take over n its done.

我从来不是那样的人
你们应该明白吧
说了后悔，一切也不会改变
只希望亡羊补牢

为时已晚？
为未晚也？

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I think I think too highly of myself
at least I tot it could be different
but apparently
I'm wrong.
history is repeating
I can even predict wats going to happen.
I wanted to change, but feel so hopeless bout it.
I wanted to tok back, but I noe I will just remain silence.

this will be de last.


I hope.

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its past 12 n i still awake...

so rare..

goin through some of the docs and realised that i really got lots of things piled up =[

especially to the games comm...

Note to self:

update the deadline- do appropriated changes

contact yc for 3rd day games confirmation

update and send all relevant doc to all games comm members (next meeting on 20nov morning)

-discuss and confirm 2nd day games.

experiment point system by 20 nov

edit games proposals and loglist and email to all

start on interim report. draft on 24 nov and submit on 1 Dec

黃小琥 沒那麼簡單

詞:姚若龍 曲:蕭煌奇

沒那麼簡單 就能找到 聊得來的伴
尤其是在 看過了那麼多的背叛
總是不安 只好強悍
誰謀殺了我的浪漫

沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看
變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半
不愛孤單 一久也習慣
不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管

感覺快樂就忙東忙西
感覺累了就放空自己
別人說得話 隨便聽一聽 自己做決定
不想擁有太多情緒
一杯紅酒配電影
在週末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡

相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經

sometimes, when i had decided
other comments will just flood towards me

so long since i last updated.

nothing much to update

although there is a lot meet-up with everyone.

anyway jus let it rot ba.

on the way back.I need to think

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this week is ending!

meet carmen and dor yesterday for kbox session!

but too bad today still need to work, so we had to leave at bout 10.30pm

our first time singin k together...

fun but a bit emo at the ending becos of the emo songs... haha

met dor today for lunch too[=

today super bored.

too peaceful. nothing happen so equals to nothing to do.

haix. i noe i sound super sarcastic but i rather have somethings to do=[

almost dozed off..haix

must tink wat i can do for research now.

so will keep me occupied.

tml will meet wq, sub n hm[=

sat go bg n dinner with laorens[=

this is my super mess table at the end of the day XD

starting of second week of attachment...

now i starting to feel the work are repeatin.... sad

i shall fill here with some photos[=

lazy to write more

se

biggest pizza i ever seen!

nice and the favours are special oso[=

so u wont see normal things l Hawaiian.

really should go n try if got time!

on bus to amk now.
just finished dinner with Carmen n dor.
oya must first wish Carmen for her 19th birthday (:
went to a place call peperoni and we tried de biggest pizza I ever had!
we chose 2 flavor n I think both r. nice.
order tiramisu n homemade sorbert although we are super full n we can't finish de pizza. lol
pics will be upload soon with de things happened this week(:

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FIRST DAY of work!

haha how should i put it?

lots of informations to remember i guess

really very networking!!

in sch, all de companies are fake. no matter how many routers, switches, users etc in each site,

it is fake.

now is real! REAL super big companies from all over de world.

so i really must help them troubleshoot asap, if not lots of things will be delay.

wa sound so serious... haha

need to read up more!!

time to dig out my notes! haha

nite[=

lol guess where I m now?
stoning at de room in de office, waiting for de supervisor to come..
reach de building super early, like 8?
then no choice but start to wander to wait for time to pass.
n finally when is 8.20+ I went up to de office lvl
I realise I m stuck at de door steps..
finally after like 8.40+ one of de staff here reach n lead me in.
so I guess stoning in de room is better than stoning at de door step ba...

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tml is the intern.

ok i m confuse, or i should say i m scared.

i dun like changes. i dun like to faced things i dun noe.

i need courage, i need things to assure myself

i need confidence.

had tried to filled my life with lots of different things

meet up with carmen n dor on wed to have a dinner.

meet up with sub n wq on thurs to go bugis to shop for clothings

went to mooncake fair @ taka with my sis on sat

went shoppin alone n jus finish family dinner today

hope my spoiled mp3 is not a bad omen.

smiles meichen, everything will turn out fine!

how long since i update my blog almost equal to how long I since i on my com.
intern starting in less than 4 days n totally no motivation at all....
actually I got quite a lot of things to update
intern meeting,company I went,settlers cafe,comex job etc etc...
I think I will just make full use of my remaining days!
k-box session with dor n Carmen tml! just confirm!

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I noe I noe I noe all everything
I just need time
need time to convinced myself

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I Need MOTIVATION!
i to find myself

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原本原来应该
全是废话
我开始唾弃自己

我是谁？

came across these two songs when i looking through the videos of mayday

listen to the music

look at the lyrics

n will see different things.

我是誰 我是誰 我是誰 歌詞

作詞：廷廷 (Magic Power)
作曲：廷廷 (Magic Power)
編曲：Jae Chong

我是誰 你是否常常這樣問自己
我是誰 總是活在別人的期望裡
我是誰 是誰又擅自幫你定義了
你是誰 只有不是自己才安全

為什麼 你以為這個世界很美麗
為什麼 你愛這個世界勝過愛自己
為什麼 這個世界不給你平等待遇
為什麼 到底做錯了什麼

朋友都說你太 太 太奇怪
在背後把你當成笑 笑 笑話看
每一個動作都被瞎猜
他們說你是個不能容忍的存在

你想要的很 很 很簡單
不過就是最普通的 的 的平凡
誠實做自己有時候很難
但是請你勇敢的試一次看看

無論他們又說什麼 閒言閒語無法傷害我
世界上只有一個我 沒人能代替的我
無論他們又做什麼 小動作無法打敗我
我知道自己是最美麗的
The most beautiful

會不會 上帝把你的靈魂放錯了身體
會不會 是故意整你不是不小心
會不會 你常常都覺得力不從心
會不會 堅持要做自己太危險

憑什麼 難道比較特別就是不對
憑什麼 先下了註解在認識之前
憑什麼 只不過想認真的活一遍
憑什麼 隨便就把人定罪

我是誰 這個問題困擾你多少天多少夜
我是誰 誰有資格決定你怎樣才是對
我是誰 我是誰我是誰
我就是我你就是你
認真做自己的人最美麗

苏打绿-十年一刻

那姑娘半定着妆身手漂亮
霓花随裳流浪
那两人说带着老歌舞齐放
百花手上飞扬

年岁的河里三百趟
那江水走遍大街小巷

不管是生旦净末丑
跑龙套也能让你激昂

宁愿舍一顿饭也听你唱
可能茫了又茫可能伤了又伤
可能无数眼泪在夜晚尝了又尝
可是换来成长可是换来希望
如今我站在台上和你音乐随享

那只竹开在东方意波芬芳
和地上流浪
那文化或在人唱英雄好汉
王子曲上征仗

不管是冰雪与风霜那个断肠人在水一方
想我这一纸混也陪你闯
可能茫了又茫可能伤了又伤
可能无数眼泪在夜晚尝了又尝
可是换来成长可是换来希望
如今我站在台上人们对你讲

十年的功去乘灿烂那一分钟的梦
生命舞台发光的人却不是只会说

可能茫了又茫可能伤了又伤
可能无数眼泪在夜晚尝了又尝
可是换来成长可是换来希望
如今我站在台上

可能饱经坚强可能历经沧桑
可能我的疯狂暂时不得到原谅
可是我知道啊可是我明白啊
是我的执着换来在你面前歌唱
唱着我的幻想唱着我的荒唐
唱着与你分享打动我们的窗

back from the movie

though a bit de disappointed but

shall post more tml!

haix i m sooooo bored

so sian-ed n rot at home

i noe it sounds super sarcastic to lots of ppl out there who are super busy with lots of things

but i m still bored =[

好像发现自己还真蛮了解自己的

或许正因为时常自我反省吧？或者是自我质疑呢？

总之就是和自己对话吧

尤其没事情做时

发现一生中有好多好多不同的阶段

在当下的我都会因为那就是全部

知道回头想，才发现自己的愚蠢和无知

不时都会怀疑或后悔自己的决定和举动

但最后还是会再次的自我否定

深知当下的我已在那个牛角尖里

就算再回到过去，当下的我的决定依然不会改变

现在或许是在迈向新阶段的过渡期吧

有点迷惘，有的得慌张，有点的空

反省的过程中才发现自己原来改变如此巨大

失去了好像很多很多

即使不想，却更无能

我想我需要好好的想想

即使不会有太大的结果

我需要找回自己的动力

third day of Hol... n quite bad of me didn't take de effort to come n update.
having thinking a lot recently.
having doubts but no ans to it

I m a person who dislike changes

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finish reading ANS!

but i cant remember!!! haix

how!

innception, nice show!

must watch!

picture time =D

a bit busy recently so i dun tok much le.

exams comin up. lots n lots of lab tests n theory tests

jiayou everyone!!

the cake i do with my sis[= nice?

pics taken after the movie[=

sian change of blog skin failed.

went to Char Grill Bar with weiqian, subrina n huimian today!

lol so funny when we run all the way from de bus stop to the market

laughing all the way~

so long since i experience these.

the food we tried! nice =D

went to hello shop to recontract my line.

super sian as in wasted so much of my time

went down today specially with my parents

jus becos they say they need the guarantor to be around.

but in de end jus need my IC

sian-ed

no only tht, other things are oso not able to do there! haix

so what like a waste of time.

bought a new wallet today! [=

but de watch i like seems like it is gone=x

once in a while i will start to think a lot of things

reflect on myself

tok to myself

ask myself

all the words will be kept within me.

as usual.

bought a new wallet today! [=

but de watch i like seems like it is gone=x

once in a while i will start to think a lot of things

reflect on myself

tok to myself

ask myself

all the words will be kept within me.

as usual.

at lib now... at first wanted to come there to do ANS de

but neva bring ANS book, so dun cant do de LCL

ANS lab apparently need 2 com n sch network ==

wasted trip here i think ?

haix. i will try to find things to do. lol

mayb wisp assignment?

wa this song i hearin now very nice[=

请你告诉他

had a super full n delicious lunch jus now with wq[=

went to try a stall which wq recommend=D

ok update de food pic soon! n sure make ur drool!

had a nice cup of bubble tea oso! haha

aiyo realise tht my posts are so dun have content.

do for the sake of doin?

i m a somebody who is a nobody

shit is totally disgusting! i dunno wat to say

mayb some will think i m a bit over reacting,

but mayb becos it is my first time experiencing it. ARGH

ok i shall post something happy so tht will distract me.

ok i realise i haven upload the pics of the previous gathering

i meant the one with carmen dor mel n pink

bluetooth in Windows 7 are drivin me crazy!!

anyway in lib again[=

enjoyin the peace n of course tryin to focus on doin my work

as usual sch for 1 hr n went back =='''

i really dun like this, as in not i m hardworkin n wanted to have long hrs of sch lec

but i think is quite waste of my time to go sch for 1 hr... haix

sian-ed everytime on the way back, more sian when i saw 171 "run away."

had been tokin to my sis bout 后悔

can you imagine when you are dyin and n cant remember anything ur life?

the whole life is wasted livin...

jus ended de CF presentation....

oops. a lot of tings did not go as well n i seem to be so unprepared=[

haix i still very bad at presentation

nvm over le.XD

finally got my pay yesterday!

but i think the pay is gone for good T.T

went out last night to accompany my sis to buy things to prepare for her work today

gd luck to her! hope she will enjoy her job scope.

back to topic, i accompany her to buy things

in the end i oso bought one myself...

cant resist the promotion!!! argh!

but i lookin forward to their new arrivals[= haha

in 3 months time i guess?

felt guilty as i spend most on de things i want, not i need.

when my other pay will be comin in?

lots n lots of things need to buy.

SLIPPERS!!shorts,wallet,watch etc etc....

had been spendin a lot of the time on my own recently

practice for the future lonely lunch-time XD

but i had been enjoyin the quietness of jus me, my laptop n my music.

went to orchard central yesterday

super quiet place, suitable for ppl who wan to stay alone=D

have a shop in urban write n spend money again XD

when i will take de motivation to upload my pic??!

Lol I came to update le!
Wat this means? This means that I m currently havin lessons n apparently I not paying attention.
Slack n slack n slack n rot n my hol has ended=x
I will update n post all de pics soon[=
I promiseXP

saw this in Ashin blog[=
found it meaninful[= enjoy[=

[转载]社會的遊戲規則，是惡人訂的，由好人來玩！

原文地址：社會的遊戲規則，是惡人訂的，由好人來玩！作者：五月天阿信

「超人巴力入、黑面蔡、大野狼」draw by ashin 2010

好久沒畫圖了，甚至好久都沒拿筆了，（都用電腦哩）
前一陣子，好不容易拿起筆畫了畫，發現畫漫畫還真難耶。
那麼請大家看看，為我初中時的漫畫家偶像「阿推老師」推薦的圖文吧：

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社會的遊戲規則
是惡人訂的 由好人來玩！


現在的你，都是在網路上看漫畫嗎？

那年，我還念國中，網路是個不存在的概念，

漫畫只存在於尋覓與緣份中。
想要看漫畫，要嘛就去那個狹窄擁擠的租書店，要嘛就去那間老闆表情很兇的書店。

突然間，一本與眾不同的漫畫，出現在我的眼簾。
那是我跟「超人巴力入」的故事起點。

在翻了幾頁之後，
我就像中邪一樣買下來，跑著把它帶回家了。

然後，你可以想像一個少年，如何在兩個半小時內，
無法停止地在書桌前，體驗過一生中最驚艷的一部漫畫。

而這本漫畫，竟出自一個跟他生存在同一個小島的漫畫家之手。


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在往後，我看了越來越多的漫畫，
但說到「阿推」這個名字，總是最令我難以遺忘。

一本漫畫，就是一個幻想的世界，
投身那幻想的世界，讓我在殘酷的瘋狂世界邊緣，有了一個暫時喘口氣的避瘋港。

「社會的遊戲規則，是由壞人來訂，由好人來玩。」

這句話，就寫在1989年超人巴力入的初版前言中，
20年間，我成長、我感受、我體驗，發現那是2010年的今天的一則精準預言。

但，我不接受。
我不接受這個預言，將永遠是這個世界的真理。

改變的方法很簡單：
努力當好人、努力變強、努力掌握重訂遊戲規則的機會，
然後努力確保自己依然是好人。


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然後，我們來說故事的結尾，或者說，故事的新起點。

2010年的第一天，我跟不二良在路上，遇到了阿推老師。
在壓抑的興奮中，我們談起「超人巴力入」，談起那個少年的夢。

然後，六個月後，
你看到超人巴力入復活了。

魯夫繼續航向偉大航道、凌波零繼續尋找虛渺自我，沒有理由讓超人巴力入缺席。

讓阿推老師超時代的才華與幻想繼續永恆。
讓超人巴力入在反空間裡，繼續存在、繼續奮戰。

改寫社會的規則吧，你就是每一位創作者的超人巴力入！

此刻的你，只願意在網路上看漫畫嗎？





阿推老師blog：http://pushcomic.pixnet.net/blog

headin out soon in bout 1++hr

didn update my blog cos i think my life got nothing to update bout

so bored as i stayed at home for almost de whole hol...

sian-ed....

....

i got nothing to say.

i made this short video while waitin for my com to back up

haha had a tiring day today

went to have a dim sum buffet to celebrate my mom's birthday

then went to suntec to look for hard disk.

walk for very long before finally decided which 1 to get

a bit paiseh to my bro as he accompany me to look for the hard disk

walk for very long n in the end go back to the first brand...

enjoy the video ba[=

went to sentosa yesterday n had quite a lot of fun!

haha so long since i go to those tourist site n it is really costly

will update the pics once i get them[=

abit 无言 now

hol now n have been doin nothing but SLACK!

done with 1 drama n catch up with hitman reborn

wat to do next?

family sentosa outin tml

return Philips shirt

work

IT show

CONCERT!

i think tht is bout all ba[=

Last day of sch!

and i m sittin in the lib after lesson waitin for the meeting to start

haix.... really broke recently

n all my things spoil at the same time again!

argh! n i really hate that.

this always happen n is like a cycle!

JOB i need job

cos need more $$ to replace all de spoiled stuff

haix

countdown 30 min

ANS lab test today

reach sch super early n the test ended in 45 min

slack n had a nap in the noon

received some call n sms-es

无语

random pic to brighten up my blog

isnt it very cute?

惭愧惭愧。真的很久没来了。

好啦一连串的事情的发生让我没有闲暇的时间过来晃晃

唉时间久了果然没有动力在写

简短的说就是

和大家有几次的聚会

在Philips canival sale 做工

好像没了。

简短吧？

sg

omg i really think tht my chinese standard is totally CMI now T.T

after 3 years of not writing it, it had become bad to worst.

i m staring at de word for more than 5 min n dunno how to continue....

argh!!!!! haix!!!!

书到用时方恨少！

i should really consider re-study my chinese

haix anyone can teach me wat to do?

went to amk for lunch with subrina n hui mian today

after the meal we started to discuss issues like y nowadays de youngster becomin like tht?

the world is like gettin wilder =x

haix had been thinkin bout this qns...

especially when i lookin at my cousin.

i m always thinkin

is this our fault tht result to his behaviour?

wat can we really do? haix...

super slacker mei chen is here to update my dyin blog.

these are some of the pics we took at ECP [=

haha suppose to go for cycling

but then turned up to be a mode a transport for us between food n rental shop.lol

have a fun time takin pics though! haha

the effects of the shots turn out surprisingly good[=

nothing much n my com batt runnin low... so ya tht is bout it[=

MSN lab today..

able to complete in time, but i dun like the feelin where i cant think of anything to solve the problem.

things piled up again...

hope tml will be goes well [=

my eyes are itchy =[ i cant help keep rubbing it, which will make it watery...

sian finally done...

ok i m worn out by the things..

at first quite a lot of things to say de..

but nvm i goin sleep le

headache =[

i hate myself when i do not keep the promise to myself...

this is wat i have been doin this afternoon[=

pic time[=

went out with my sis to get her shirt for graduaton

in the end i oso bought somethingXD

tired of shoppin n went to old town for a rest.

mother's day

lol weird combination of havin Choya + ice cream + pandan cake XD

change the usual cream cake to pandan cake from the special request of my mom

still a bit weird but nvm happy can le [= lol

think that the Choya is really nice =D

sweet and sour with a bit bitter taste of alcoholic drink.

today

went out to northpt with my sis to get gift for her friend

got these puffs as treats for the whole family[=

spent money again....

ok but not all the things are mine of course...